25th of February..

i dont want to babble about nothing..unless it gives me a satisfaction.Urgh.,well today is his 5th day on land and im so happy with that.people,u can see through my eyes now.im happy.e'thing seems so complicated as he gets so many things to settle,including ermm our documents.i've got more tense and it makes me upset.do couples out there has been through this challenging moment before they get married? so, today as usual,stay at home and watching dvds.my life become more dull and boring.i dont know why but i starts losing my friends.they were married and about to get married like me.oh yeah..they are working too. :P i want to smile again whenever i think that one day i will have a new partner/best friend/husband which is always there with me.hey! we rent an apt! to start our marriage life..well,its perfect~

worried!

its painful whenever i start to think about it.Im worried and it keeps linger in my mind.I've been through my hard times during previous relationship.And now,im gona start a new chapter of my life.I just hope that those shits will never repeated again n again.I love this guy so much,and i dont wana hurt anymore.I wana be in the safe side.To be secured.I know i've been ridiculous if i keep blaming my past.I just deserve this guy a lot.I was trying so hard to believe in love again the moment i met this guy..i love him so much.God please gimme strength to believe that his love will be mine for the rest of my life..