hati ini..

22.12.2011..

excited nye tunggu hari ini.. :) balik awal pun sebab ni.yelah,dah lama plan kan?..so as usual,pagi2 ikut mummy g keje n she drop me off kat tempat tu.tunggu lama sampai fed up.last2,my turn.well,at first e'thing was ok.then there's came d sad story.i was so shocked bila dpt tau that news.yela kan hati siapa tak sedih.Bila benda yg selama ini aku impikan,rupenya hanya mimpi. :( Allah sahaja yang memahami hati ini.Subhanallah.Setiap yg berlaku itu ade hikmahnye.Aku redha ,tetapi kesedihan ku tetap ada.Ubat segala kesedihan kadang-kadang menangis,itula kerja aku hari-hari.Aku bersyukur disebalik kesedihan ada nya si dia yang mengerti hati ini. Tapi apakan daya,si dia hanya ada di dalam hati.Not in real life.This is what u called a sacrifice.Aku tahu aku hanya insan terpilih yg dipilih Allah s.w.t untuk melalui ujian berat ini.Mungkin ini adalah bahagianku. Aku redha,aku pasrah..and the sad story will continue..happy new year to e'one.I wish my life will be better and semoga Tuhan panjangkan umur serta memberkatiku..insyaallah.

journey to marriage life..

i'm a wife now.nothing i can say except get twisted over my real self and not being me all d time in front of him.well,i'm not that nice..and i can't be nice all the time.i've tried to be a good sweet "bella" and s'times it works! ahahaha.i've learned a lot from him on how to arrange e'thing in order especially when it comes to house chores.it's funny when 2 people living in d same house fight on wut they're gonna use for clean d kitchen,toilet and how to make up d bed.it's tough and believe me,i need more time to adjust myslf..*sigh.but,along with the hardest thing,i also had fun being a wife.nothing beats our love and i'm so thankful to have such a wonderful,caring and annoying husband ehehehehe  :P.hey i llove my life..

honeymOOn!!!

so, we went to bali for our 1st destination of  honeymoon..well, as i expected,mmg best sgt2.we really enjoyed our stay in the villa..i knew he will love it.we had a butler and our b'fast served in the villa.how cool was that?? ehehe..

my wedding day!



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yeay! it's my wedding day!..finally we're here to celebrate d big day.10th of september 2011 (my side) and 17th of september 2011 (his side) .nothing to say about this day other than one of d happiest day in my life..

tangisan luka..

tiada siapa mendengar keluhan dan rintihan hati kecil yang hina ini..aku sedar aku bukan secantik perempuan di luar sana,aku sedar aku bodoh dan tidak sepandai perempuan diluar sana.aku sedar aku tidak kaya seperti perempuan yang pernah dikenali...aku hanya nabeella.kepada sesiapa yang begitu mengenaliku,terima kasih diatas segalanya..

dup dap dup dap...

aku sungguh teruja dengan peristiwa yang akan berlaku ke atasku pada 2 April nanti.Kehangatan kian terasa dan aku sering membayangkan betapa meriah dan bersyukurnya aku kepada Nya.Alhamdulilah, hari bahagia kami semakin dekat.Semakin hari semakin sayang aku kepadanya..Aku berdoa semoga dia menjadi seorang suami yang mithali dan boleh mendidikku menjadi isteri yg solehah.Insyaallah.Semoga majlis kami menjadi ingatan seumur hidup kami,dan segalanya berjalan dengan lancar.Amin..

i love you bby....

romantic moments in singapore..

How do I
Get through one night without you
If I had to live without you
What kind of life would that be
Oh, I
Need you in my arms, need you to hold
You're my world, my heart, my soul
If you ever leave
Baby you would take away everything good in my life

Without you
There'd be no sun in my sky
There would be no love in my life
There'd be no world left for me
And I
Baby I don't know what I would do
I'd be lost if I lost you
If you ever leave
Baby you would take away everything real in my life

And tell me now
How do I live without you
I want to know
How do I breathe without you
If you ever go
How do I ever, ever survive
How do I, how do I, Oh how do I live...

cinta kami..

setiap cinta ade permulaan dan ader pengakhirannya.Bagiku,cinta bermula diketika aku melihat nya pada kali ke 2 selepas kami berjumpa.Dia dtg ke jb pada kali ke 2,selepas die menyatakan yang die ingin ke jb semula sebelum belayar.Ya, aku mmg mengaharapkan kedatanggannya lagi.Perasaan yang selesa bersama die menguatkan lagi persahabatan kami.Segalanya berjalan dengan lancar sehingga die menyatakan hasratnya mahu bertunang.Yerp,aku sgt gembira.Tuhan mendengar doaku selama ini.Alhamdulillah.Berada di alam pertunangan mmg mencabar.Sgt mencabar.Tidak pernah aku membayangkan si dia menipu ku untuk menyelamatkan hubungan kami.Mmg aku tersentap dgn pengakuan dia.Aku sgt sedih,dan kecewa.Di hati kecilku mengagungkan cinta kami,tetapi Tuhan Maha Kaya.Mungkin dgn tragedi ini membuatkan kami berdua menjadi semakin sayang,semakin kuat.InsyaAllah..Aku hanya berdoa semoga dia menghargai cinta kami,kerana sesungguhnya aku sgt mencintai dia.Tidak pernah terlintas di hatiku untuk mencari yang lain.Aku syg kan dia..aku perlukan dia...

25th of February..

i dont want to babble about nothing..unless it gives me a satisfaction.Urgh.,well today is his 5th day on land and im so happy with that.people,u can see through my eyes now.im happy.e'thing seems so complicated as he gets so many things to settle,including ermm our documents.i've got more tense and it makes me upset.do couples out there has been through this challenging moment before they get married? so, today as usual,stay at home and watching dvds.my life become more dull and boring.i dont know why but i starts losing my friends.they were married and about to get married like me.oh yeah..they are working too. :P i want to smile again whenever i think that one day i will have a new partner/best friend/husband which is always there with me.hey! we rent an apt! to start our marriage life..well,its perfect~

worried!

its painful whenever i start to think about it.Im worried and it keeps linger in my mind.I've been through my hard times during previous relationship.And now,im gona start a new chapter of my life.I just hope that those shits will never repeated again n again.I love this guy so much,and i dont wana hurt anymore.I wana be in the safe side.To be secured.I know i've been ridiculous if i keep blaming my past.I just deserve this guy a lot.I was trying so hard to believe in love again the moment i met this guy..i love him so much.God please gimme strength to believe that his love will be mine for the rest of my life..

hate u!

finally...i jst say it.i hate u.the way u treated me..like a jerk.i hate u because u make my life miserable..benci!!!..huh.for the 1st time in 2011..aku nangis sebab sakit ati,nangis sebab bingung..nangis sebab tak ader sape yg mendengar..nangis sebab aku nak happy tapi org yg sepatutnye happy kan aku,turn me down..i wanna run away from here..plz somebody get me out of here.even i have no food to live.i know i can survive.just..plz get me out of here..plz...plz,, :(

The they...

Parents.Urm..what else i can say.They were just human and they also made a tons of mistakes,but the truth is they never be blamed because they were always RIGHT.Right about decision,life partner,picking the right clothes,settle the bills..etc.The best part is they wont stop until u have ur own child..ehehe.I have my own opinion about them.For me,they just want to annoy you because they still seeking for attention. :) Guess i should be more positive on what happened between me and them.They're still my parents.God loves em' so do i.On seeking blessing from God,be nice to my parents wont hurt. :)

emotions!

he went for a month now.well,my pray is always with him.as for me,i live for today and future.i dont know what's gona happen 10 years from now,but i believe that we can change the fate by work hard and prayer.Today im not feelin' good.i think it's just because of PMS..uhh.sufferrrrr....my physical syndrome has grown out more than i expected and now it playing with my emotions.

today is friday...

wut a day,,many times ulang alik beli tiles,food.thought of having nasi goreng for lunch and end up "mcd"..wut a waste instead of adding calories. :P hey its been several months i stayed at home.its boring but worth it coz i know i wont be like one day.gona start my class n being busy all the time.hope i wont bring down an neglect my lil family ..(hubby+child ) one day hehe insyAllah,,
i cant wait to get married,so as woman out there aite? but the thing is im worried bout the doc.how am i going to face those who really hates me much? im not a pretender and wallah! i know wut the hell u talk behind my back..im sure i will pull such a dicky face later,,ahahaha..ops.anyhow,i hope dat our things will getting smooth n the ceremony will be blast :) lotsa things to prepare and im gettin over excited day by day.weee~

my wishes granted! 18/1/2011

thank u baby ...ehhehe...lostsa love..